I have never been happier

I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would one day stand in a room full of people and preach..
I never ever thought that I would choose this path for myself, church has always been a must and not a choice but working whole heartedly for the church of God is a choice, a choice I made..
I found fulfilment and purpose in church, dare I say I found my calling..
spending an entire day in church hearing people from different walks of life preach and testify and praise and worship the Lord is so much fun. More fun than any party, chillas, drinking session I have ever been to. Wow, who would've known.
My soul feela fulfilled, my heart at peace, joy, so much joy.
This choice is the best choice I have ever made.. I am busy with meetings, writing letters, preaching, all for the glory of The Lord..
I am so greatful and blessed
I thank God 🙏🏼

Also I have no desire to go out or drink or do anything other than go to church and get busy..
this is an amazing feeling 😋☺😊

Amen

on this a beautiful day i felt a sense of hope... things are feeling like they are coming together. i cannot speak on it right
now but it is all going t be alright.. its gonna work out for me soon and i will be happy.. like for real legit happy not the kind of happy when i start a new relationship... and finally this hope has nothing to do with a man or a boy or love or any other third party.. its the happy between me myself i and my God.

i pray this all works out because God knows how much my soul needs this..

i pry with all my heart that the Lord sees me through and helps me, helps this to happen so i can grow...

may the good Lord love and protect you all.. in the name of Jesus Amen..

stuck in the middle of a war

I am stuck in the middle..
my allegiances have been properly shown but still I am stuck..

Both sides are right but both are wrong one more than the other. I have made it clear to the one side that I find offence personally in their actions but this side refuses to wave it's white flag.
I know my place, I can't say too much, I can't show too much support for the other side because it could jeopardise my wellbeing. But what is one to do.

Important milestones are being missed. I am missing things I should be there for, because of words that were misplaced.. the inability to keep ones mouth shut is a disadvantage, knowing when not to speak up is a gift, one that is undervalued. I wish I could turn back the time and warn the other side that overstating is never recommended when it comes to this situation. A private life is a happy life and distance provides peace of mind.
I wish I could tell this one side to stop it already, nobody is benefiting from this war..

I wish I could apologise to each side on their behalf, take their proxy and hug it out..
This war is killing innocent souls, souls that had nothing to do with it all.
I hate conflict, I wish we could all just get along..
I hate drama I wish we could all just laugh it out..
I hate this tension..
I wish ego's could be left out of this..
I miss the norm, I miss the happiness, I miss the sunshine.
This war is dark, cold, dry.. the light has been killed it's all dark and gloomy..

I hate this war..
I wish it would end..